Day 11 - Arrival blues

As day 11 comes and goes, I find myself sinking more and more into the dangerous world of 'get there itis'. We learn about this in risk management… pushing some risk you would normally not push aside because you just want to get there…. well that's where I am.

I'm tired, I'm sick of this freaking boat, I'm sick of seeing, hearing, touching, and experiencing the same thing day in and day out, and frankly, I want to stand on land, go for a walk and hold the hand of Sophie. I am ready to arrive. Yet I still have about 550NM to go. Probably 4.5 days in what feels, today like a prison, confinement.

And the weather is not helping me get there. In all honesty, I think I have made good time on this trip… the boat has worked hard for me and rewarded me with some outstanding mile days but it seems now the winds and direction are not as much in my favor… it is shaping up to be a fairly slow crawl into port, something that will not help my arrival blues.

In all honesty, I knew this day would come. The day I which I would say… I have had enough of this I just want to arrive. I'm actually a bit surprised I made it this long and I told myself at the end of last week "Ryan, just get through the next 7 days" and I have.

Tomorrow is cleaning and pizza day! With leftover ice cream ;) it should be a nice day, then I'm going to decide how I want to finish the trip, waiting for the winds or motoring in.

Those who know me know I don't mind the motor. I view it as another tool in my tool belt while I sail… though I will say since I started ocean sailing, I tend to use the motor less and less.

I'm not sure I could stand the motor for three nights though I'm not sure I could stand bobbing around out here for 4, so dammed if I do or don't.

Maybe my weather router Charlie has a magical answer for me ;)

Sophie arrives in Antigua marking another milestone in this trip, if she is there that must mean I'm getting close!

I will say the other thing that has been very tiring this trip is the lack of sun. I have maybe had two sunny days put of them all and today all I have seen is rain.

Until pizza day ;)